After the first hiccups, I finally received the letter that I had been accepted into my dreamed business school. I thought that I would be thrown to the seventh heaven of joy. But to be honest, once the excitement subside, I had a mixed feeling. I looked at my sons in wonder, knowing that I will not be able to spend as much time as possible with them again for the next 2 years. Pascal will be 6 and Mikhail will be 10 when I finish school. Oh my…I already could feel times slipping through my fingers…

So I did another SWOT analysis, a lot of soul searching and think until my head hurts. And now I am convinced that this is something I need to do. I have been wanting to do this since 8 years a go, and if I delayed this, I may spend the rest of my life wondering. So all I can do is give everything my best shot. My family, my work, my school…all I can do is give my best effort and let the result take it place. Pray for me, will you? I am in the beginning of another journey which I hope will result in another happiness…

On another side of the equation, the kids seemed to be even cuter than ever. This conversation happened in a morning around 05:15 am when I prepared my self to go to work and Mika has finished showering. He was going to have his english examination so I gave him some questions and baby Pascal was really enthused to help. This conversation took place in mix English and Bahasa Indonesia, so baby Pascal could participate in giving answer:

Me: What is little dog in english?

Mika: Puppy

Pascal: Woof woof

Mika looked at his little brother in annoyance and said, “Mom did not ask how it sound?” but his little brother looked back in annoyance and reply, “Whatever…” I managed to suppress my grin and continue:

Me: What is little duck in english?

Mika: Duckling!

Pascal: Kwek kwek!

Mika threw another look of annoyance and Pascal looked back stubbornly as if he was saying, “So what? I want to answer too!”

Me: What is little cow in english?

Mika:…mhhhh….

Pascal: Mooooooo

Mika, “Be quiet! I can’t think! Mom did not ask the sound of it!”

Ok, so it was about time for to change the rule of the game,

Me: That’s ok. Pascal can do the sound and it’s ok if you can’t answer.

Mika scowl and Pascal showed a line of white teeth…

I knew that I am going to miss these moments.