12 Jun
Something is wrong with me. Today is the 4th day where I felt that my sanity went down the hill. There were times when I was in situation where I should be worried or depressed but I laughed my head off instead. But there were times also when I felt as if a pair of invinsible hands went through my chest and squeeze my heart made me difficult to breath. Once it was so worse I had to sit straight to make my self breath easier and stop the tears from welling up. I am not sure what that is. Definitely not coming from too much work for I have been able to be good and leave the office at normal hours.
I wonder what that is.
3 Responses for "4th Days"
Sometime this is a sign that we’re running our life way too fast. Not just at work, but life on general.
I know because I’m worst at multi tasking (this is one of our weakness compared to women) and have experienced very similar symptom at times; I suspect more frequently than you.
When this happened, usually I shut everything off - work, computer, handphone, laptop: and went out to the field & have fun with my kids.
Sometimes it’s as silly as washing my car - 2 of them will end up on the roof, the other 2 screaming and trying to get on top with no success, and me splashing all of them (except the car) wet and got more screaming in return.
The car still had dirty spots when we’re finished, so sometimes I still have to visit the car washer near home; but we had fun
Or I’ll grab Helen and went to a nice secluded cafe / restaurant, and have a laugh together, just the two of us.
Once I did this at 3.30 am
Or sometimes this happen when things are running so well & good on us. This may sound stupid, but it does !
When I managed to realize that this is the case, I looked around and see people :
# a 3-in-1 jockey, she brought her baby along, just about 4 months old. She’s so small and cute, and she had to be on the street everyday already.
Her mom told me that Kamtib kept on chasing them (and other jockeys), and if caught, they’ll be separated. (WTF ?!)
# an old man, older than my grandpa. He’s all smiles all the time. Very thin, almost no teeth left. But he works all the time in my cluster, he wouldn’t just sit down and do nothing - cleaning the streets, planting seeds / plants, etc.
He got several kids, and many grandchildren - and most of his kids are jobless so his grandchildren suffers.
We gave him our zakat every month, and he’s even more cheerful since.
# and many others
Remembering them, I’d become grateful & thankful, and I’ll be able to go on again.
Har, thanks for sharing. Maybe you are right. Sometimes 24 hours seemed not enough to do everything we want. But I guess it’s a matter of prioritize things and know when to slow down.
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