Jakarta rains heavily. All I see outside my window is grey and grey everywhere. Sometimes I could see the tree tops swaying played by the wind and some particles of water splashed through the window. I got text message how the flood has started, the traffic got worse and the airport is closed. Blimey.

I am feeling blue. Just found out that Mika had G6PD deficiency. They said it inherited from the mother’s side. My poor baby. Me and my bad genes. I talked to the company doctor this morning. Could it be the daily heparin injection I took during my pregnancy caused this. He said no. But why that does not make me feel better? Anyway, I have been hearing this since yesterday. It suits my feeling.

The Scientist

by ColdPlay 

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin’ up Tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It’s such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin’ at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin’ in circles, Chasin’ up Tails
Comin’ back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.

I’m goin’ back to the start.