Without realising it, tomorrow will be the 30th day I am working in my new ‘home’. I had begun to see things that need to be tidied up sooner rather than later, things that can be improved and some of the dirts that had been swept under the rug. That’s what a home is for me. When you begun to see things that you would not see in the first place and you stay to make things better.

I miss my old friends terribly. I miss some most -my heart is still aching whenever I think about them- and there are some that I am glad to leave. I miss the afternoon coffee and seeing familiar faces in the corridor. I miss the luxurious surroundings. But I certainly do not miss the load and pressure. Tee hee.

But what relieve me most is no more never ending hours meeting. No more battling the traffic on my (very late) journey home. There are only few things on my plate. Although they are HUGE but the variety is less. Enough for me to chew properly one at a time. Enought for me to sip a drink once in a while. And enough for me to really enjoy every bite of it. And I will be helped. It is so relieving to be surrounded by experts. Knowing that everything is shared and discussed, and way to move forward had been thought through. I did not realise how much I appreciate this kind of quality until I feel how calm and focus I can be. I just realised that I have almost gone through a month without feeling depressed or suicidal at all. I am sure that there will be tough times ahead of me, but at least I know that help will always be there. And as long as you have tried your best, you will not be blamed. I have a beautiful life.