Today is my first day back in the office after almost a week off. Because it was a public holiday on Thursday, 25 May, I then decided to take one day off on Friday, 26 May. After that, I got another flu attack so the doctor put me on medical leave for Monday and Tuesday. Well, actually today too, but I don’t think I could afford another day off. The other day off have proven to be one of the most challenging days in my life. I need something fresh to relax my self. Something else called working and earn your living.

It started on Thursday morning when hubby and some of his high school buddies decided to play futsal. The wives (who are also my high school buddies) decided to take the kids and meet at KidSport Pondok Indah. Mika, as usual, was a slow starter. He was pouting outside the jungle gym for an hour whilst Diany, Ditya and Figo were already running around happily. Pascal on the other hand, was already running riots in the baby gym. It was only until I introduced Mika to Ferdy (who was Diany’s kindergarten buddies) and bribed him with fried rice and french fries my big boy lighten up a bit and play. That left me, Ririn and Rany to conveniently had our girl talk.

I must say that it was truly refreshing to meet your old friends again. It was not only because we shared lots of happy days at high school but it was also because we are in the ’same stage’ of relationship which means: family with young kids. Rany and Ferdy, as you may remember from my previous post, have two beautiful children and expecting the third. Ririn and Gembong have one ‘active’ boy. I suddenly felt ‘normal’ and glad to found out that my girl friends are thinking the same thing, feeling the same feel and (sometimes) react the way I reacted. I did not feel so bad about my self after a while. I suddenly felt perfectly normal to have certain not so positive emotion that I am not going into details here. Right…

Friday we stayed home the whole day. Playing with the kids whilst trying to finish CSI season 5 DVD and another Dan Brown’s book. I noticed that Mika is started to have another round of flu. So I think it was a good thing that we did not go anywhere.

Saturday morning Mika woke up with swollen eyes. It swell so bad, his eyes were shut. He looked like oversize gold fish! It happened before so I was not too panic. We took him to the doctor in the afternoon together with Pascal who had another physical therapy. We went to the mall where Mika finally willing to have his hair cut - well actually he just wanted to play Play Station at Kiddy’s Cut but nevermind. My hands were itched to trim my big boy’s hair so it was okay.

Then we heard the shocking news that there was 6.2 richter scale earthquake in Jogja. My thought directly went to my uncles, aunties and relatives there. Jogja is my mother’s home town which I visited sometimes. And although we did not meet often, I stayed in touch with several cousins. Moreover, I knew that one of my colleague who is also my friend was there on vacation. So it was truly depressing to watch TV but yet I could not take my eyes of it. I was hoping to see some familiar faces. None of my text messages and calls were answered at that time. The transmitter must be down or something.

I felt so relieved when I finally received news that my friend was okay and my relatives were evacuated safely.

Sunday morning, we were the one who evacuate our selves to my grand mother’s house. We’ve been told that there will be fumigation to prevent dengue outbreak but we were never told the time. So there we were, packing our things in panic, tried to escape the carcinogenic subtance whilst the fumigation machine made the scary sound blowing the deadly smoke only few houses away. Great! I wonder whether our Head of Compound ever heard strange things called planning & communication. I guess not. I don’t think they ever heard the word carcinogenic as well as I saw many people with children (and baby!) happily watching the fumigation process. They just put a mask to cover their nose. Gosh.

Monday I was totally under the weather. The flu return in full force plus hubby and I had one of our ugliest quarrel. I mean debate. No, I mean lively discussion. It was so ‘lively’ I barely could contain my self. The good thing is, it helped in getting rid the toxic inside me. It’s good to yell and be yelled back once in a while. Not too often though. But it was good to sometimes forget good way of communication and scream on top of your lung to get the steam out. I was over the line, I knew it but I still have this great beast inside me which I still don’t know how to tame. I think sooner or later I will need a professional help. As soon as…yesterday?

Tuesday was quiet day. I think hubby and I finally made peace. In the afternoon, Mika suddenly cried his eyeball out in pain. I took him to the doctor right away and was referred to neurologist. The Neurologist told us that there are several possibilities, range from sinus trombocyt and brain tumor. He was immediately advised to go through CT Scan. I felt numb hearing about it. Strangely, I did not panic or collapsed into hysteria. Actually I was pretty calm and busy making plan for the worst. In my other project, it was called contingency planning. So despite of my mother’s protest of me returning to work whilst my son is going to have CT Scan, I went to work and hubby accompanied Mika to have CT Scan.

And today was like the mother of all day. In the morning my boss informed me something that I had written here before but now I deleted it. Nevermind…I guess I must prepare my self to start finding another job. If you managed to read before I overwrite it, forget it, okay? Don’t ever bring it out. Cabbish?

Fortunately later today I had a coffee date with a couple of expatriates and their foster son who are among of my favourite people in the world. Marc and Jan were one of the nicest couple I ever met. Few years a go, when they were assigned in Jakarta, they decided to fund an education of a cleaning boy in their apartment. When they moved to KL, they involved me in administering the education fund. I must admit that at first I was a bit sceptical with the boy’s motive. I suspected him robbing this couple with sad story of financial problem etc. So I joined basically to confirm my prejudice but I turn out to be 100% wrong. Deden was one of the genuine person I ever met. He was not only trustworthy but also a straight A student. There’s quality in him that I sensed that if it is fostered it will be good for this country. I never regret the day I decided to get my self involved as I enjoyed every minute of it. Two weeks from now, Marc and Jan will return for good to Houston. Therefore they invited us to sit together and discuss how could they guarantee Deden’s fund. They are planning to send him to an international program abroad. I felt so happy for him.

All I can say is, I felt so much better after meeting them. That and also knowing that Mika’s CT Scan result has showed nothing on brain tumor. Few words about sinus though. But lets worried about it tomorrow. From now, I am closing down…hoahm!