My mood has been one of the foulest today.

I left home with another virtual smoke seeping out my scalp. Things are not better in the office either, my list of things to do seemed to grow longer. I skipped lunch to get them all done and at the of the day I am still stuck with this sophisticated thing so called SAP.

I just realised that I lost lines of items that I’ve done last week for God knows the reason why so I had to redo them all over again. The connection did not help me to work faster either and the sight of invoices that I need to approve seemed to multiply.

I could feel the temple of my head pounding and there’s big lump on my throat I feel like crying. I feel like crying my eye balls out. It seems whenever I made progress there seem to be some devils clinging on my ankle dragging me down. There is no more positive thought left to comfort my self. Sorry I sound like I am whining but that’s how I feel this evening. I don’t know how to make my self better and there is nobody that can make me feel better. There’s only me and my self. And my problem. My silly thought. My mistake. My flaw. My emotional luggage. I am exhausted. And screwed. And fucked.